the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
dunno y i feel the tiredness inside me but i jus couldnt get to slp.
im hurting.
somehow.
by wad happen later part of the day.
went to csc jus nw to gif *gf a suprise.
i noe *she wud be busy so i din call b4 gg over.
was meant to be a suprise u see.
so ya.
i reach there like ard 610.
waited til bout 630.
no sight of *her.
no reply.
so i called.
and noe wad.?
-like wad i thot it wil be-
*she told me *she is alrd at tamp.
okies.
i wasnt angry at tt moment but jus kinda disspointed tt my plan was ruined.
nxt,
the angry-est and hurting thing is when *she actually noe im at cac waiting.
*she scolded me.!
i was like.
speechless.
*she says she wasnt in gd mood.
but does tt gif *her a reason to scold me for jus went to cac and gif *her suprise.
i was fcuking hurt.
really.
and im pissed too.
i really dun understand why *she is not in gd mood *she cud actually scold me for things like tis.
am i in the wrong.?
tryin to make *her happy aft a lond tired day.
tryin to let *her feel blessed by hafin her gf fetching *her frm wrk.
i dunno.
after tat,
met *her at hougang mall.
went over to *her place in the end.
we din really tok.
i can feel tt if i talk i wil cry.
and i alrd tell myself tt im not gg to let *her see my tears anymore.
i wan to be the happy cynthia in front of *her.
a gal with no sadness.
a gal with no trouble.
the gal *she had fallen for 9 mths ago.
im willing to hide all my feelings inside jus for the sake of our rs and for *her.
but please,
tell me all these im doin are rite.
before i left,
we tok bout it.
im sorry,
i cudnt help it anymore.
the tears jus dun stay.
i hugged *her and tell *her tt i dun like been scolded jus becoz of *her mood.
im *her G I R L F R I E N D.!!
yes,
i AM.!!
sigh.
there are so much mixed feelings in within nw.
i love *her.
yes i do.
ive showed.
everything.
but what about *her.?
the scoldings i got let me feel tt im no longer tt impt gal in *her heart.
maybe im just thinkin too much.
but will a girlfriend scold *her own girlfriend when *she is not in the mood.?
will *she.?
)':
dun say*you want to leave me for hurting me.
this is not what i want.
all i want is *you mkin things better.
put in the effort.
just like how i did.
and im sure we can last.
with both *your and my effort.
we can see a longer path for us ahead.
shall we.?
loves.
[bingbing] well, perhaps im not really tt strong. moreover, im really weak by nature. smtime i really nid to be showing strong becoz i dun wan her to worry. dun wan anyone to worry. im stil learning to be stronger and stronger. but promise u wil gif my hugs wil i cnt tk it kays.? (: eh, i think jinn use photoshop to do the pic and effects and all. but i dun haf tt software. still lkin for it.hees. misses.
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wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
& Berline
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
yes, please grant her with:
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY