the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
BEST choir conductor.! daddy LIEW.
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
& Berline
yes, please grant her with:
i lose the one dearest to me.
i lose the one my hrt beat for.
i lose the one hu is the reason smile for.
i lose the one hu is alrd part of my life for a yr.
i lose the one i nvr blow up before.
i lose the one i love no matter how bad *she treats me.
i lose that one and only one.
*baby.
tell me i deserve *you doing all these to me.
am i.?
3 more days to anni.
and at this very moment.
i lose *you.
fuck my life.!
2:57 PM; be my
always
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
im lost.
once all over agn.
why do i feel the distance.?
cant things stay like it was the past 1 mth.?
i want to see *you.
so badly.
)':
9:26 PM; be my
always
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
it had been some time since i last feel this way.
it had been some time since *gf treat me this way.
it had been some time since i closed my eyes and i start tearing.
it had been some time since i feel so hurt by everything *she says to me.
*dear,
can *you stop doing all these to me agn.?
please dun let me suffer all over agn.
please dun let me adapt to ur attitude agn.
im hurt.
so badly tis time becoz im so used to the nicest of *you.
and i dun expect *you to do all these to me agn.
our 1st yr is coming.
yes,
i want to spend it with *you.
so much that im planing things now.
anyway,
do *you rem it.?
sigh.
*you noe my tears are dropping agn for *you.?
do *you noe how i pass my day today.?
do *you know how much i hate feeling this way.?
how much i hate crying.?
what's wrong now.?
what did i do this time that i caused *you to treat me tis way agn.?
am i to blame to deserve all these.?
i really wish its just a one day thing.
i hope tmr,
everything wil be alrite.
i dun wan to cont tis way.
i swear i will get into depression.
and please not at this time.
i wan to pass my sup paper.
*baby ,
can *you see how u means to me.?
how actually *you can affect me in one way or another.?
i need *you .
yes i do.
so dun leave me at this very moment.
tell and show me im jus thinking too much.
i wish to see *you tmr.
but im oso prepared to miss *you more with *your absence.
im tired but i still want to move on with it jus becoz,
i love *you.
too much.
3:11 AM; be my
always
Monday, September 18, 2006
where are *you.?
i so much wanted to see *you today.
*you told me to wait till *you wake up and go over *your place.
but till now,
i din hear any single thing from *you.
im kinda disappointed.
but i understand.
hope *you had rest well in these 24 hrs of slp.
i love *you.
i miss *you.
more to blog but not in the mood.
nights.
):i dun wan to feel so empty agn, please *baby.
12:35 AM; be my
always
Thursday, September 14, 2006
back from my 3 days 2 nites chalet.
it was great.!
*baby was great too.!
*she came on the first ntie to slp over.
im so happy tt *she can get along with my frens.!
that is great.
i love *you.!
(:
its really nice to see everyone gets tgt and haf fun.
all managers turned up except elynn.
wad a waste.
boo.
im glad tt my marinated chicken wasnt tt bad.
laughs.
is nice rite.?
and the prawns i made was damn nice la.
hahas.!
went red house at nite,
wad a waste,
i din go in becoz of smth.
seems like i gt no chance to go in anyway.
3rd time there 3 times i cudnt go in.
boo.
no more gg there anymore.
humpf.
grins.
din really get to slp becoz of the musical fountain.
hahas.
those hu stayed over noe wad im tryin to say.
and i think im one of the musical instruments too.
hahs.!
so ytd i reached home i slpt all the way til dinner time,
den after tt slpt at 10 plus all the way til tis afternoon.
hahs.
now im having a split headache.
probaly too much slp and oso a little of hang over.
me and meilan drank quite alot.
we finish 3/4 of the bracavi.
and i swear i prefer absolute.
hahas.!
but weiting and meilan says my mixing is nice.
tyty.
we played hai dai quan.
towards the end me and meilan was tipsy n i bet i made alot of ppl laughed when playing with meilan.
hahas.
but it was fun.
okies.
i gtg.
get myself prepared for another chalet.
gg over dia's birthday chalet with *gf.
yeah.!
anoother nite with *her.
(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, girl.!
some ppl come some ppl leave. no matter wad may happen, i will nvr forget i once had alot of fun with u. u wil find someone better, someone hu deserve ur love, someone hu noe how to appreciate u nore than i do. she wil be the one u lookin for. perhaps its not me. u noe it well, i noe it better. move on, u wil be happier. and dun forget, u gt me here. as ur buddy, as ur "twin" since we haf the same birthday. (: tk care wee wee.!
3:56 PM; be my
always
Sunday, September 10, 2006
hello.!
im back.
boo.
im super lazy to update la.
but ya,
im gg for a 3 days 2 nite chalet tmr.
cant wait to enjoy to the max.
i wish *gf will cum tmr.
*she kinda hurt me by *her words jus now.
those false hope.
nvm.
wun take it to heart.
im searching.
desperately.
for the feeling i kinda lost it and missed.
i wan find back the closeness.
be it physically or emotionally.
the closeness we used to have for the past 11 months.
our first yr coming.
im excited.!
i wan to be with *you.
feeling all the love frm *you.
):
feelin bad.
shall leave.
goodbye.
*baby i wish *you will turn up tmr.
really.
10:49 PM; be my
always
Friday, September 08, 2006
updating.
the day before,
met darlings and colleagues for movie marathon.
thanks ah low for the free show to the host.
it was damn great and i scared my eye candy and aloy by screamin abit loud and i nudged eye candy.
luaghs.
(: aloy me and ah yew.!
stupid hubby giving that stupid face.
darling jia and me.
darling bing and me.
ytd met shihui x.mark joyce peiting and ray to choir. mr liew stil as nice as b4. lunch was on him and it was GREAT. yummy. hahas.
my dearest choir girls. LOVEs. 
darling mark and me.!
used to be this swt hurr boy.? (x
feelin bad recently.
althout i reall really enjoy the life im having now but somehow,
things arent tt great as i thot it was.
i hate losing frens becoz of love.
i hate rumours kip goin ard.
i hate it when my fren is been pulled dwn into the shit tt gt nth to with him.
*im sorry yew*
sigh.
how long will this matter last.
when will everything's dwn and everyone are back to like how we were when we first met.
i wish u haf nvr noe me so u wun be sufferin and i wun be hurting anyone.
and tt includes u.
there is alot of things to blog but nt really in the mood to.
so ya,
enjoy ur day everyone.
i miss *gf .!!
3:37 PM; be my
always
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
hey everyone.!
now im still in gv.
grins.
sebas and wee doin last round of detailed cleaning and im in ofc chatting wif ah low.
laughs.
and im dwn with a serious bad flu now and its realli driving me crazy can.
boo.
candy bard closing was stil alrite aside tt i slam tt metal door in my rt 3 fingers.
hahs.
how careless can i be la.
last nite or rather tis morn,
i did detailed cleaning till 6 plus,
slack in ofc,
lied on eye candy's leg and almost fall aslp.
its kinda swt la.
hahas.
and pls,
if YOU are tryin to spike me with tt gal,
well,
im sry.
i wasnt jealous at all but it jus kinda turned me off.
wadeva.
den went home to slp at like 10 and woke up at 2 for wrk at 420.
and yet,
im stil so alert now can.
to you:
PLEASE KIP IN MIND THAT WE ARE NTH AT ALL.
I DUN THINK U GT ANY RIGHTS TO SAY MY DARLING AND TOK TO HER LIKE AS IF U CARE SO MUCH FOR ME.
HELLO,
U ARE JUS TRYIN TO MALKE HER ANGRY AND UPSET,
N ME TOO.
DUN EVER THINK WAD U DO CAN MAKE ME HAPPIER AND LET ME FEEL LIKE IM PROTECTED,
WELL,
I CAN TELL U THAT I DUN NID IT.
THINGS HAD PAST AND WADS THE FUCKIN PROB WITH U THAT U GT TO BRING IT UP AGN AND HURT HER.
LEAVE HER AND LEAVE ME ALONE.
THANKS.
think he had alrd hit my limit.
my highest limit.
it had been so long since i last blew up and felt so irritated.
i dun nid care and concern that wil lead me to further trouble instead.
if u cant accept that im tis friendly,
den jolly well leave me alone.
and stop using other gal to spike me u are not hurting me but u are hurting urself and the gal.
get me.?
i miss *gf.
wonder when will i get to see *her.
tmr im busy with my frens.
hopefully i can mit *her tmr.
i wan to see *her more.!
boo.
ah yew.!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.!
i <3>
laughs.
thanks for ur banana milk.!
(:
but i wan dutch lady plain milk.!
grins.
2:07 AM; be my
always
Friday, September 01, 2006
busy days. happy days. fastrated days. fucked up days. yes, these are the days i had since mon. boo. but i think im still coping well. in life, we gain and wil lose. so ya, wad else can i ask for more.? i can be mean. i can be stubborn. i can be unreasonable. i can be loud. i can show my attitude when u hits my limits. i can hate u even if u did nth much to me. as long i dun think u are nice, u disgusted me, i wil despite u. completely. yes, tis is me. if u dun like it. dun bother to try likin it. im someone hu hates to be controlled. i believe that i gt my rights to tok to anyone and to be close with anyone. be it guy or gals. so wad if im cr8, and ive a *gf.? i noe my limits and i noe hu is the one i REALLY love. and that's only *her. i wan to respect u and i want to be respected too. i jus loved been br8 and been more open than normal gals. im jus too used to the environment i had these yrs in poly. and yes, that's me. im tried of arguing and giving attitude. im hard. u are too. becoz we are the exact same date babies. so if u wan to stop all these, u gotta gif in becoz im used to be given in to and i wun wan to change. moreover, u are a guy. sry, tis is my mentality of a guy and a gal. seriously, STOP being paraniod, and things will be better. trust me. and there is no nid of running away frm ur feelings. becoz in the end, the one tt wil be utterly hurt is u not me. no one knows ur feelings better than u, urself. so if by saying those decieving wrds to me makes u feels better, go ahead becoz its u tt wil be hurt in the end. i wun n cant do anything to stop it either. well, u nid to noe how to handle ur own feelings better before loving someone else. if not, everything will just falls apart and i wun be the one on the losing side. is u. and i dun wish this will happen. so.. u noe wad to do.? ytd i had a gr8 gr8 day.! my new PL.! berls, i LOVE u to bits.! smucks* grins. went bck NVSS wif rach and ping. met sm teachers. glad tt they stil rems us. hahas. and mama chia.! y u go on course at tis time.?? boo. i miss u la.! miss shouting "mama chia" infront of everyone. hahas. went ps, had a hair cut AGN. met mel after tt. stil as handsome. wahaha. love her too la.! nvr fail to cheer me up. waited for eye candy to fin box,helped him thru the closing part. grins. was suppose to watch movie but due to sm reason which i dun wan to rack it up agn, we end up drinkin outside 7-11. dunno wad happen to me, i get high so easily ytd. maybe becoz of my fucked up mood. grins. but was fun. get to know minyew. nice guy i must sae. grins. okays, gtg mit *gf. yeappies.! (: my stupid ex. laughs.
darling shihui n me.!
jr corine and me.
my fav eng teacher. mrs gibson.!
rachel. me. meiping
shen jun and me.
berls PL. iloveher.!
eye candy. yewyew. CUTE.!
i jus simply love her la. (x 
7:20 PM; be my
always
the GIRL
LOVES & HATES
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
CONNECTED
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
PLEASE
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY
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