the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
din have alot time to blog.
so i just come and say hello everyone.
im happy these days.
im sorry to *you.
perhaps o really no nid to say sorry but i stil want to.
moreover *you are someone i really really did love ALOT before.
want to know where *you stand now.?
its alrd deep in my hrt tt i cudnt get rid of alrd.
so i wil always rem *you.
rem tt i did loved *you before.
goodbye.
thanks syg.
really.
it wouldnt be so great if i din haf u ard.
i appreciate EVERYTHING u did for me.
really.
i wil try my best to trust u.
all i nid now is time.
its hard to turn back str8 completely.
hope u understand.
give me the life i desreve.
i pray.
3:40 PM; be my
always
Monday, October 02, 2006
going for a 3 days 2 nites chalet agn at sentosa.!
yeah.!
im looking forward to it.
drink drink drink.!
yeah.!
and my first time to wild wild wet.
(:
sorry.
i have been tryin really hard to be busy with alot alot of things and reach home really EARLY in the morn.
is tis the life i wan.?
i dunno.
but im likin it slowly and i wudnt wan to change it.
to *you,
sorry if i really neglected *you these days.
seriously,
im tryin how see how life it wud be really without *you.
after wad happen tt nite.
i no longer hold high hopes anymore.
becoz whenever im holdin on to any high hopes,
i will be fallin even bad-der.
do i really deserves all these.?
i wonder.
sometime i thinks if *you really loves me,
*you wudnt even bear to do a single things tt hurt me.
okays.
i might sound like complaining now.
but yes,
tis is how i feel and wad i had been thinkin abt these days.
when was the last time i seen *you.?
and when will be the next time i will see *you.?
i dunno.
perhaps,
till i really can noe how life is realli like without *you.
i dun wan anymore hurts.
i wan love.
the love i deserve.
i really wish *you wud tell me tis,
" i need you because i love you"
and not
" i love you because i need you"
can *you see the difference.?
):
to my mr nice guy,
thanks alot alot alot for being there for me since tt very day.
everything you did really touches me and i realli appreciate it.
the sudden brkfast u brought to my place,
the worry when i start to cry these nights,
the worry when i start drinking these nights.
im sure u had really seen the ugly sight of me.
i dun mind showin all my ugly sides becoz i noe u are someone hu can accept me as hu i am,
dun mind even me been once a lesbian or even a lesbain for the rest of my life or rather i shud sae been a bisexual as i grow,
not forcing me anything or wad.
really thanks.
IF ever there is one day we wud be tgt,
i hope my family ppl cud accept u as a malay.
i really wish they will.
thanks.
mr. hary
much of appreciation.
i wish i cud find the answer to everything im goin thru now. im not happy as you guys thot i am.
):
1:56 AM; be my
always
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
& Berline
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
yes, please grant her with:
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY