the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
im back home and i got nothing to do.
so make use of this time to blog.
im feeling down now.
no one to turn to.
so i choose to hide myself at home.
i dunno why.
and i dunno how.
to stop makin myself been so sensative.
its me.
its really me.
its just MINE character to be sensative.
is it a wrong.?
its jus torturing me.
okays.
i noe im stupid to always compare the present frm the past.
but somehow i jus feel that,
things shoudlnt change so much.
todae after prac ica,
i was wishing tt *gf wil like in the past,
asking me how was it and all.
i refrain myself frm msgin *her becoz i dun wish to disturb *her frm wrk.
i waited and waited.
so end up i called.
*she did went for brk but jus din reply me.
does tis shows that *she dun care.?
im hurt by it.
i noe i might be unreasonable.
but sorry,
i cant help it.
i try tokin nicely and all,
but maybe becos *she is really too busy,
that;s why *she sound bad agn.
i told *her we maybe nt miting tonite,
and all *her reply was jus,
" up to you."
hey,
im hurt by tis.
thou *she might nt imply any other meaning but ya,
i thot *she will at least ask a why.
never mind.
just take it im petty.
i dunno.
i just simply HATE it when *she treat me gd at tis moment and hurt me badly the nxt.
and i HATE myself for not been nonchalent at times.
*baby,
smtime i jus dunno how to be nonchalent.
smtime i jus nid to be pampered and coax.
smtime i jus nid *you to be a little swt to me and let me feel like im the queen.
smtime i jus nid *you to be alittle kiddy and sa jiao with me.
smtime i jus nid some care and concern from *you.
smtime i jus wan what *you promise me wil come true.
smtime i jus wan to hear *you when i think i nid it.
smtime i nid *your reply to make me happy a little.
smtime i jus wan to hear "i miss you" from *you.
smtime i jus nid *you to gif in to me a little more.
smtime i jus wan *you to zong rong wo a little more.
smtime and smtime.
althou something is i always wish wil happen everytime but i noe it wil only make things bad.
im thinkin.
im compromising.
with all my might and heart.
and i just want things to be best and smooth.
please,
tell me what i did is right.
i want to show others that *you are nt taking me granted now.
my tears jus sometime wun show how much im hurt on the outside becoz its my heart that is hurting.
[debb] okies. soon it wil becum forever love. hahas. den wad bout mine in ur blog? hurrhurr..hees. misses.
[bing] she is sinyi lehs. wad u expect.?hahas. cya later for bball. i miss my bball.! later must play oso hurr.hees.!
[sinyi] finally see ur tag. wahahas. nt bad la. at least now u noe how to use den nxt time wun be so mountain tortise le. hahas. oh ya, are u gg bbq tmr.? i miss you. (:
3:46 PM; be my
always
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
& Berline
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
yes, please grant her with:
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY