the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
im so bored.
im so lonely.
*gf din reply.
din msg me at all.
noe nth bout *her situation at msia the whole morn.
nw *she's in spore le.
i dunno.
i felt so out of no where.
i felt deserted.
i felt no love.
i felt really LONELY.
no one cared.
no one bothered.
wad did i did wrong.?
y do i haf to experience tis agn after 3 yrs.?
sigh.
i love *her too much to let go.
*she means too much to me to lose *her.
im used to *her.
but im struggling inside.
im drowning in my sea of tears.
good things really dun last.
promises are really meant to be broken.
swt talkings are only smth to mk someone feel love.
at tt moment only.
if i can choose.
i wished i dun haf all those rite in the beginning so i wun be hurt at all.
tt nite,
tt brk up.
i promise i wun love *you more.
i stil rem.
im stil refraining.
i noe im nt loving *you more.
im jus loving *you as much as i do b4 tt nite.
*you said we are startin all over agn.
does tt means tt *you are suppose to treat me better.?
love me more.?
care for me more.?
but y are things like tis now.?
the only communication we haf (sms)*you are oso lessening them.
*you onli sae we shall meet lesser,
talk on fone lesser.
but *you din sae bout our msges.
im so afraid.
*you nvr noe how actually ur msges means to me.
its smth tt telling me im think by *you.
i still got sm1 to tok to.
i stil gt sm1 to turn to.
now,
even its a askin qns kind of msg,
*you cud be cruel and nt reply me.
*you loved me.
but why are *you so cruel.?
not thinking bout how i feel.
not thinkin of how i wil be worried.
DEAR.!!!!!!
what have *you become.?
i needed *you now so badly.
but whr are *you.?
i noe NOTHING bout ur whereabout at all.
*you nvr reply my msges.
can *you tell me what is the reason behind all these.?
*you say yes,
*you wil msg me.
but..
when.?
i cant tk it anymore.
let me brk dwn today.
im cryin.
in no one's arm.
im all alone.
in this 4 walled room.
and im thiinkin of only one person.
yes.
thats *YOU.
let me have my eternal slp.
tk me to a place i see no tears.
feel no pain.
feel no loneliness.
pls,
lord..
1:17 PM; be my
always
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
& Berline
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
yes, please grant her with:
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY