the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
it had been somtime since i last post.
well,
alot of things happen actually.
just within a min,
things can change and dun say a day.
rem wed i jus posted,
in the afternoon.
at nite we torn apart.
actually things were okies but becoz of a small thing,
we quarrel.
real bad one.
real hurting one.
things are really bad at tt nite and the days followed.
i cried.
hardly.
badly.
and i thot i wil get into depression.
all my gals were standing nxt to me.
holding on to me titely.
thanks gals.
loves.
on sat,
things were gd i suppose.
but sun,
the feelin when im with *her was realli bad.
as in.
weird.
so before i went home,
i decided to have a gd tok out with *her.
im prepared for the worst alrd.
like i expected,
things falls apart.
we ended.
i thot im strong enuff nt to cry.
not to brkdwn.
but i cant.
i noe im nt strong at all.
the walk back to granny's place was long.
*she followed behind me.
i cried even harder.
the moment i saw *her tears,
my hrt hurts even bad-der.
i nvr thot i wud be bck to her agn anymore.
but well,
we were.
at the end of the whole thing.
*she agreed to start all over agn.
i went bck to *her.
all the way till now since sun.
things are kinda fine.
can see tt *she is kinda compromising with me now.
send me to the bus stop,
do things i think it wil mke me better.
actually,
this is all i wanted frm *her.
ive been giving in everytime by saying "its ok"
but deep in my hrt,
i wanted to scream "its NOT ok"
nw,
i gonna be bck myelf.
im stil goin to give in but i gotta take it too.
*baby,
forgive me if im gonna be stubborn at times.
forgive me im gg to be unreasonable sometime.
im just tryin to protect myself.
but tis wun refrain me frm loving you.
i just want to know the love i want.
the love i long lost months ago.
the one i gt from you right at the start.
since 260905.
i just want it all back.
to me.
only me.
hearts.
[bing bing] thanks darling for been there for me thruout the darkest time of mine. love you lots.! muackies. cya later.! (:
[jia] u ask me not to sad, you oso dun sad wor. no matter what you stil got me with you. jus like how i gt you with me too. you haf really nvr failed to be there man. LOVES.!
[rachel] hey gal.! thanks.! i wil try my best to be happy. (: i hope she wil jus treasure after all these. hope she noe we came thru alot to be jus tgt. (: tk care.! u r always my fren and i'll be there to listen to ur prob if u nid. smiles!
[ping] haha. jus saw you the day before hurr.. im standing up now. i hope i wun fall agn. i dun wan to be hurt agn. i gt faith in everything. (: tk care alrite?
[debb] awww.. im gonna be ur forever love?! hahas. swt. hw's hols? cum ps visit us.! hahas. tk care.! i love you too (:
[sinyi dar] mans. finally tt day the 5 of us managed to gather tgt hurr. such a nice moment. i jus miss sec sch life. sigh. hugs. mit up soon.! HUGGS.!
12:26 PM; be my
always
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
& Berline
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
yes, please grant her with:
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY