the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
was suppose to haf lesson at 1pm but i realise tis wk there isnt tis module.
so lesson gonna start at 3 and end at 4pm.
boo.
one hr travelling,
one hr of lesson.
bo liao.
forced myself to slp all the way till 12pm.
jus dun feel like wakin up but im nt gd in slpin so many hrs.
hahas.
last nite jia dar came over to find me.
pei her tok alot of things.
tell her wad i learnt frm the rs i gt wif *gf.
well,
say is always so much easier than doing.
but there are certain things ive made up my mind.
i noe i wil be the one suffering but i gotta to do it.
for the sake of tis rs.
for the sake of *her.
i dunno how long i wil hold on like tis.
but i wil do my best.
be my best.
last nite before slping,
i read thru *her past msges.
tears rolled dwn.
the memories,
so sweet,
so much.
and i realised it had been smtime since *she says *she misses me.
i wish one day *she wil msg me and says *she miesses me and want to see me.
telling me *she cant wait to see me.
all these,
i missed.
what's the difference now?
we used to mit everyday but yet *she still misses me.
but now we dun mit everyday,
but is *she missing me like i do.?
i hate the change of role between us.
i hate the misses i haf when *she dun.
ytd was our 9th monthsary.
i dun blame *her for not tkin it as a special day anymore.
but i blame myself for not letting *her feel it is a special day.
we nvr failed to mit each other on tis date,
but ytd,
we failed.
the feeling of so near yet so far is strong.
ive thinking of her a little more ytd.
but is *she.?
now i wish time cud stop rite now.
stop at our 9th month.
i dun wan our 1 yr to come.
becoz last time we used to haf tis "contract" thingy.
im so afraid tt my 1 yr contract due,
and its time to put a full stop to tis rs.
i DUN WANT.!
i msged *her tellin tis last nite,
but i bet *she fell aslp or ignored.
well,
i just wan to hear smth assuring me.
but its okies.
no blame.
dunno if we are mitin later.
its gonna be a last min arrangement agn.
*she no longer lookin forward to cum over my place.
tue used to be a confirm day we wil mit.
but..
nvm.
i noe we gt our reasons.
sigh.
our 9th mth came so hard.
im cherishing it alot.
is *she.?
iHEARTS*you.
1:31 PM; be my
always
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
& Berline
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
yes, please grant her with:
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY