the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
was suppose to haf bio lect but lecturer on mc.
so decided to blog b4 miting jud and head dwn to ps.
had been really shag these days.
yawns.
grandma discharged alrd.
im glad.
(:
and to tok abt hosp,
im like super pissed off by tt fucking lecturer who tok to me the other day.
pls,
i felt so insulted can.
and as a nursing manager,
i dun think tt is how she shud tok and behave.
its like so wad the fuck la.
wadeva.
jus do wad she wants and i wil jus follow.
wad to do.
i stil wan to graduate and be a SN.
boo.
fcuked up.
hmmm,
there is things i wan to tok abt regarding rs im having with *him.
but i dunno how to start.
all i can sae i noe i love *him,
i noe i wudnt wan to lose *him so fast,
i noe ive been really expecting alot from *him.
i noe its really unfair but i seriously dunno how to stop expecting.
i really hate myself for tis.
really.
so much that i wish i cud lose all the memories i had with her last time.
so i wil stop fearing,
stop protecting myself so much which eventually leads me to be more expecting.
i hate been like tis.
sigh.
sry *syg,
im jus fearing.
really fearing.
but i love *you.
yes i really do.
now im afraid tt i will start having this "wadeva" attitude towards someone.
someone hu is my close fren.
someone i always likes to tok with abt everything.
but recently alot of things happened to her.
i tried tellin her wad i can and wad i feel.
but she dun seems to do anything abt it.
or rather maybe she tried but i cant see.
and instead getting herself in more trouble.
i wish all these erm,
i wun say rusbbish but annoying problems wil end soon.
sry.
im someone like tis.
tried changing but i cant.
and i din wan too.
becoz been someone hu is not really myself is so tiring and so fake.
dun u all think so.?
sigh.
wad had happened to me.?
hurt.
sometime i wonder if asking for pure happiness and troublefree are smth impossible.
2:52 PM; be my
always
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
& Berline
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
yes, please grant her with:
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY