the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
hmmm,
why am i so upset now.?
like sthg went missing.
sthg is wrong.
i feel kinda lost and overall im just
UPSET.
am i too selfish to just wish that *you will not wrk ltr and acc me.?
like on a nite esp friday's.
a nite that i still dunno how to pass it alone.
tuesday and friday nites are the nites the hardest for me.
its so hard to change the habit of passing them alone since i had nvr did before ever since mummy wil wrk on nite shift these 2 days.
but well,
i noe i shudn't be selfish to stop *you from wrking just to acc me.
i understand that *you have to earn money.
but there is just this feeling that i dunno how to exaplain.
despite knowing and understanding the reason behind of *you insisting on wrking,
i still feel disappointed.
but its alright la.
just go ahead and wrk ba.
i guess i really nid to overcome this.
passing this horrible nite alone.
worst come to worst,
if not raining,
i might head dwn to punggol end.
(:
a place i love to hide at,
to think and reflect alot of things.
now *you are outside with them.
yes,
i know *you will enjoy.
so no worries.
sorry that i sound so sad and wadever feeling *you think im having.
i really tried not to but i just cant.
sorry if i said that we shall dont meet tmr.
its not that i dun want to see *you but i will jus feel REALLY upset that *you have to go off after seeing each other for like 3 hrs or less.
depending whether *you will be late not.
and this is oso one of the reason why i thought of not miting.
*you late,
i will angry.
den *you have to leave real soon,
i will feel upset.
these two feelings are enough to make the rest of the nite even tougher to pass.
i dunno la.
i want see *You but i oso dun want see *you due to those reasons i stated.
ARGHS.!
i fucking hate this feeling im having now.
like wad the fuck.!
what's wrong with me now.!
fuck it.CYNTHIA,
you are a bad girlfriend of *his.
yes yes,
i guess so too.
):
alrite.
i shall go off and slp and stop thinking and perhaps stop crying.
i swear my eyes are gg to drop off if i gg to cont crying all these nites.
arghs.
wad a week la.
fuck fuck fuck.!
(sorry for all the vulgarities. im jus so.. ARGH.)
)':
1:59 AM; be my
always
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
& Berline
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
yes, please grant her with:
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY