the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
i dunno whether wad im doin is right,
but i noe is definitely smth i really dun wish to do.
rejecting *your calls,
off the ringtone and let it rings till *you hangs up ( *you can do tt to me and so do i ),
dun reply *your msges.
yes,
you all may think im cruel,
unreasonable.
i dun care.
becoz only me myself and i noe exactly how i feel and wad im gg thru when i doin these to *him.
i swear it isnt smth nice at all.
it jus hurts me as much as it hurts *you ( or perhaps it doesnt hurts *you at all ).
*you asked me whether am i angry with *you.
why should i ans that qns since it wun help any at all.
end up *you *yourself might be angry.
so wad's the point right.?
must as well i myself angry than causing another person angry.
maybe you all think im selfish to think for myself only.
let it be.
im so tired of making everyone ard me happy,
agree with wad im doing.
does anyone know wad EXACTLY i wan and wad EXACTLY i feel.?
anyone.?!
if no,
so just let me be can.?
just for one day.
even it means i might lose sthg impt to me,
someone so dear to me.
i dunno wad im talking alrd.
all i noe is
I AM FUCKING SUPER UPSET
im not angry AT ALL.
)':
please please dun say *you will do sthg when *you cant even do it. althou its not a promise yet but is sthg *you told me *you will do but end up its jus wrds that dun meant to mean. how much more must i go thru to let *you see and realise how all these little mistakes *you make wil make me so sad. i noe *you are hu *you are and i accept it but there are just sthg that i can nvr accept. things *you dun like i tried changing. things like *you wants me to tell *you everything when things goes wrong, i did. *you asked me to control my angerness, i ctrl if not i wud haf been angry with *you for wrking ltr. *you say wan meet even it means 3 hrs of miting and *you say *you wun be late. okays, i made up my mind that i wan to meet *you, dressed nicer and try waking *you up so *you wun be late or jus a little late.but ya like wad i expected, *you can nvr wake up by my calls. i dunno wad else i can say anymore. i feel that the more i say the more i nid to explain. well, i think i owe no one any explainations. wad i expect *you will do *you will nvr do. so wad;s the point of gg on saying so much thing and hurt myself so bad.
oh God,
tell me how shud i move on from here.
5:59 PM; be my
always
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
& Berline
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
yes, please grant her with:
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY