the GIRL
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
had been quite some time since i last blog.
things arent too well for me and *him.
thou we just pass our 3rd mthsary tgt but i swear it was a bad one.
sigh.
i dunno wad else i can i say or do to stop all these.
what i do seems like not too right for *him.
i tried and listen to all advices and do wad im told to do but wad i get in return.?
*his attitude,
*his impatience,
*his misunderstanding,
*his ignorence.
all these are killing me.
the communication prob between us seems to be still as bad it was ever.
everytime after quarrel or argue,
*he ask for forgiveness and chances.
saying that will change,
saying that it wil not happen agn.
but still,
one day ltr,
all these happening agn.
*he gt his reason and my explanation seems to become nth.
and end up everything seems to be my fault.
im so hurt.
hu can understand right deep inside i feel.
i try all ways to tell and make clear how and wad a person i am.
yes,
*he listened den say sorry den i forgive.
but still.
sigh.
giving chances agn and agn is equal to giving *him chances to hurt me agn and agn.
im hard inside but i swear im soft inside.
everytime i jus wil "heart soft" and go bck to *him.
perhaps this is the reason *he takes me for granted.
thinking that no matter i will still back to *him.
nvr likr *his ex.
well,
does tis means that i really have to leave *him for real so *he will noe to really treasure me.?
sigh.
im despair.
im so lost.
i dunno how to move on from here.
there is sooooooo many things waiting for me to do to put in place.
to make them perfect.
im not God.
im just an ordinary girl.
i just wan and wish my boyfriend can understand me a little more than others.
and to do so is to show my real true self.
but by doing this,
things seems to be worse.
tell me.!
tell me wad i shud do.
i really cant tk it anymore.
i dun wan history to rpt.
really.
i have enough.!
)': take me away to where i should belong.
7:25 PM; be my
always
wants to be called as cynthia. her first cry was on the 110888. currently studying at NYP, a NURSE to be.
now she is TAKEN by HIM. and yes, finally, she is with a GUY now (:
she really LOVES sleep, music, freedom, HUGS, liquor, clubbing, DARLINGS gang, all the swt time she had with *HIM, all the things *HE had done for her & obviously H.I.M !
she really HATES chocolate, ice-cream, hurts, words that doesnt mean anything, empty promises, tears, stress, pressure, irritatation, FATS.
& Berline
& Christine
& Deborah
& Ilyana
& Jazz
& Karine
& JinFeng
& Jolene
& Lynnette
& MeiBing
& Meilan
& Rachel
& Shahidah
& ShiHui
& SzeYing
& YinJia
yes, please grant her with:
adidas jacket
Head tennis racketbillabong wallet
newurbanmale sandals
bikini
puma/nike/adidas bags
more skirts
more tops
new handphone
much fats off her body
been loved dearly by *HIM (:
spend almost 24/7 with *HIM
tanned skin
more time to enjoy
graduate from NYP asap
MONEY